Yes, it is. But unlike a few years ago I don’t have to go through every hoop because I needed to afford food, I’m going for an improvement. And there’s something cathartic to be applying for jobs during my current work hours.

Edit: one thing I realized is that there are a lot of things that seem to be against “relax” that actually decrease stress. Letting a deliverable slip was a massive source of stress, but in fact it’s less stressful than over do myself. Changing jobs has been so far a massive improvement for me mental health, even with the scars still present. The effort was worthy for me, I was lucky in that sense