I honestly would prefer library silence or less. Earplugs cause other issues for me so they are not an option, I have tried. I also prefer almost complete darkness.
I’m honestly looking to build a float tank to use for times when I am really struggling to sleep. When I scuba dive the only reason why I don’t try to take a nap is the risk of losing my regulator or running out of air.


You keep moving…
https://dailygalaxy.com/2026/05/albert-einstein-bicycle-quote-meaning/
Believe me, been there. I have dealt with depression for nearly as long as I can remember. I was always an outcast in school. I had family who were toxic, abusive, and downright nasty pieces of work. When my son died at 9 days old in 2002 I struggled to do anything and was nearly 400 pounds. Then I became a widower in 2019 when my wife died, I was heartbroken and while I was alive I wasn’t living.
You have to find something to do, you have to get out and make a friend, you have to do anything you can to stop staring at the four walls around you. Exercise helps a lot, go for a walk in a park or ride a bike around town. Also set a schedule and stick to it, plan for 15 or 20 minutes of exercise, get up at the same time every day, go to bed at the same time too. Learn to cook it you don’t already know how and cook most of your meals. Dump the junk food, BTW pre made packaged food is junk food and so is fast food. Get in the shower every day, brush your teeth too. Go to the library and read a book. Learn a new skill. Talk to a stranger. Go help someone else just to do it. Pick up some trash on the side of the road. Do something… ANYTHING… different than you normally do. Doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results is a simple definition of insanity.
You also can’t rely on someone else to make you happy. You have to do that for yourself. https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/wander-woman/202505/5-ways-to-discover-and-deepen-what-makes-you-happy