Just wondering about this.
I have a friend who sometimes just specifically craves a certain dish from a certain food chain. (Like wicked wings from KFC or something)
Or they suddenly feel like watching a specific show (Like Boston Legal)
How does that work?
I never seem to experience something similar to that.
Is it common to feel like that?
Sounds like disassociation, perhaps even “anhedonia” (stupid naming, essentially your brain is suppressing emotion). Did you experience any trauma while young? Especially something that lasted a while?
It does feel like that sometimes. I notice that when there is a moment where it would make sense to be angry, I instead just feel headache or stomachache, but don’t really feel any emotion.
I don’t know whether I experienced any trauma. I just don’t remember much. Especially emotional things I don’t remember.
In fact, I had a conversation with my father recently. And I remember we got emotional about something. But right after the conversation, I can’t remember anymore what we talked about.
That does sound strongly like some kind of emotional suppression. Some people have problems forming memories when they experience intense anger or sadness.
Have you ever tried taking notes / writing a diary?
Yes! Maybe a bit too much even. I make a lot of notes to remember what I’m supposed to be doing, or for habits like brushing my teeth. and I even wrote a journal for a long time almost everyday.
But I write mostly about the things that happened during that day, not so much about emotions. Maybe because I just don’t really know what to write.
When I look back on these entries, it always feels to me like they were written by somebody else.
But somehow it’s helping I suppose, since journaling has been the starting point for me discovering all this stuff. I started almost 10 years ago though, and still find it difficult to feel my own feelings and emotions. But being able to write this and share it with others would have been impossible for me only a year ago. I wouldn’t have the idea, or would forget about it, or would feel to uncomfortable to share.
I also forget that I wrote about certain things and sometimes find separate notes where I write about the same stuff again and again.